Always wanted to be married and nave a successful marriage, wanted to make my wife happy and kids and never have a divorce, have what my parents failed to do at a critical time in my life, well after a divorce of my own, and a lot of soul searching I discovered I was replacing my number one relationship that with the trinity with that of my wife and kids, the focus was more on what security i got from them and that relationship than the true relationship that could bring me true peace and joy.