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Give illustrations of ways in which specific styles of foolishness were learned in your early years.
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I grew up with my cousins and being the youngest in the group, I would follow their leads in doing things so that I would be allowed to play with them. I would not tell on them and keep their secrets (mischievous acts). This also shaped my behaviour at school that I would always be the one to accommodate the asks or requests of my classmates.
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The first memory that came to min as a child was getting things. Getting toys from toy store. Getting treats from the grocery store. Going out to get things for my birthday. Getting little trinkets on vacation. I liked that as a kid, it made me feel special to get things. When I didn’t get things I would indeed respond with ” I hate you”
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Compliance brings peace. Non- compliance brings scolding and a feeling of being rejected. So don’t have any opinions and follow the crowd to keep peace. As a teenager this resulted in following the wrong crowd and getting involved in bad behaviors.
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Work hard, clean a lot, please others – especially mother, and do not draw attention to yourself. Having need was considered shameful.
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I learned to doubt myself and my worth, because others made fun of me or got irritated when I was right about something or got attention. I started to suppress myself in order to not have people be irritated with me, but that caused me not to do and say the things that God created me for.
I learned to wait to be told what to do, because my mother often directed me and micro-managed me. As I got older, that foolishness turned into having no idea who I was and how to act, other than looking to others (sometimes terrible examples). I didn’t learn to think for myself, or stand upon any integrity because I wasn’t sure how to make my own decisions.